Tuesday, January 12, 2010

When pursuing healthfulness gets in the way of health...

I could explain my lack of posts by saying I've been enjoying winter break, or haven't made anything good to eat, or any other fill-in-the-blank excuse...

But, no, this is my truthful explanation for why I haven't been writing.

Essentially, I don't feel as though I am in any position to offer advice, serve as an example, or even comment on the best food choices. In fact, for the past few weeks I've been forced to face, in a difficult and personal way, the downfalls of pursing too much healthfulness.

What I mean by this, is that in my journey to inform myself of the best nutritional tips, advice, and statistics, I became too consumed with specifics. I picked and chose key parts of individual tips; and, while good in their whole form, the small rules I found myself clinging too were ultimately more destructive than healthy.

The most difficult part about it all? I found myself so quickly and so deeply snowballing past "health" that it is a true challenge for me to dig myself out. I've heard it said that, unlike an alcoholic who never has to drink again or a crack addict who never needs to see another pipe, for someone with disordered eating the challenge is always there: I will always have to eat three meals a day.

Currently, I am working with a nutritionist to get my eating habits back on track. She is great at offering advice and shedding light on what is really important about food: nurturing both the body and soul.

So then, I may not be writing for a while as I work on getting back to healthfulness. Thanks for all the support throughout my blogging... I look forward to getting back to it in the future.

By the way, I am open to any questions or comments about the struggles I am facing.


  1. I'm so sorry you're facing this challenge. I myself always struggle for a balance in my eating, and it's so easy to go too much onto either side. I wish you the best as you figure this all out.....

  2. Hi! First, best wishes as you work at your health goals. You can do it, just take it day by day and I hope you have a fantastic nutrition professional to work with.

    Second - I'm so sorry you never got the prize! That's a huge deal...you deserve it! :) I'm following up right away and absolutely keep me posted if you don't get it. We'll remedy this!!!

  3. Hey girl!!!
    i know its so hard to balance-but girl, its soo worth it. the longer you stay at an unhealthy weight, the more screwed your body is. YOU CAN DO THIS!! do it and DO NOT LOOK BACK! its soo worth it-you deserve life to the fullest!!!! praying for you!